Welcome to the Future.

Do you ever think about your future?
Of course you do. Everybody does. But. When you do, what do you see? Do you see something your excited for, or something that scares you. Do you see definate plans or abstact ideas. Do you like thinking about your future? What does tomorrow make you feel.
I've been thinking about my future a lot.
I know the first thing im doing after i graduate is travelling. I know thats what everyone says right. How individualistic of me. I just feel like i can't live my life without knowing if im in the right base camp. I know i want to see Ireland, India, Italy, Greece, Peru, France... As much as i possibly can. If you think about it, we live in the luckiest place in the world right, as your told everyday. But also i think the shallowest. We have no heritage here. Nothings happened. Okay and i know people reading this are like have you ever even read canadian history books and yeah i know we have a history, but compared to other nations, we got nothing.
I want to walk on the Great wall of China. I want to stand in the Taj Mahal. I want to run my fingers along the ragged walls of the Colosseum.
When i think about these things, an indescribable peace runs through me.
Like everything else is okay.
I dunno if thats a good thing or a bad thing.
Does that make me an adventurer or someone whose running away from soemthing.
Hmm. I've learned one thing about myself recently. I tend to overthink things. In a day i do a hell of a lot more of thinking than speaking. I've also learned I'm okay with solitude. Which is always seen as a bad thing, you know, like that loner who hangs out in some corner of the school. But i dont think its a bad thing, being alone sometimes.
What do you think?
Do you ever feel like you have no one to talk to?
Like, i mean i have plenty of people to talk to everyday, but im talking about someone who will talk to you serisously, on a different level.
Sometimes that drives me mad. I have a lot more deep things i want to talk about but eeryone im around only seems to care about who broke up with who over what stupid fight.
I can't decide if im more mature than my years or if everybody else is just too afraid to show that side of them.
Do you ever wonder if your special?
Everyone wants to have those little quirks. little odd things that the people who love them adore them for.
But are we really unique? are we born the way we are or do we make ourselfves who we are.
I guess either way is kind of a scary aspect.
You know whats sad, no one? Im having this conversation wiht my keyboard.
Do you ever wish you had someone to talk to?
I think we all do. But is that person right infront of you and your just too scared to open up to them.
I dunno, no one.
What do you think?
Hey, i forgot to tell update. I've been a vegetarian for almost three months. Im getting a job soon, and tomorrow im going to get my L. I'll probably fail ahha. But yeah. I'll tell you how that goes, my dear no one.

LOVE,
jenessa♥